Be generous

As we are walking into another new chapter in our adventure, I found myself praying and asking God what I need to be pursuing and doing now. Over the last few months, He has opened doors for me to use some new gifts I never knew I had… but, what am I to DO right now?

Ever ask Him that?

{What am I suppose to be doing?}

Silly me. Isn’t this what my God has been teaching me this last year?
The only thing I have to do is abide.
Focus on Him.
Pour my heart into soaking up His Word and make myself open to His pursuit.

Abide… Intertwine myself with my Creator.

Back in the Spring of last year… when my husband found out he would be laid off, I had this need to write. Honestly, it felt like it came out of no where! But, I simply felt like I needed to share our story… what I was learning… how God was walking with me in this crazy. Even if I was just sharing with the air in cyber-space… it didn’t matter.

I had this blog sitting around for a while and decided this is where I needed to write. So I did… It didn’t really make sense. Frankly, it made more sense for me to pour my time into my coaching business to generate more of an income for us – but, I kept coming back to this place… and in many ways it has always been more for my own benefit and/or therapy to write here.

I need to ‘talk’ through my thoughts and struggles to process them – and this blog has played a big part in providing that for me. And, if that is all it is/was – I would be perfectly content because just sharing the ugly – has been so good for me. Perhaps God is just using this blog for me.

But, I think He has had different plans… as I have shared my story – others have opened up and shared theirs with me. I’m hearing from people who never felt like they could share the ugly… shame, fear, and whatever else has kept them from feeling the freedom to do so. Yet, somehow they have been encouraged here to start sharing.

wow.

See… when we keep our eyes on Jesus – whether we want to or not… whether we are afraid to or not… whether we understand why or not – no matter what, making that constant choice to follow where He is leading, we get to see Him work. All the details about how things are going to fall into place… are just distractions.

This King we follow? He can handle the details!
He really, really can!

After thinking about what I need to be doing next… I opened up an app on my phone to see the Bible verse of the day… It was from Matthew 5 – look at how beautiful!

“Here’s another way to put it:
You’re here to be light, bringing out the God-colors in the world.
God is not a secret to be kept.
We’re going public with this, as public as a city on a hill.
If I make you light-bearers,
you don’t think I’m going to hide you under a bucket, do you?
I’m putting you on a light stand.
Now that I’ve put you there on a hilltop, on a light stand—shine!
Keep open house;
be generous with your lives.
By opening up to others,
you’ll prompt people to open up with God,
this generous Father in heaven.”
Matthew 5: 14-16 MSG

Do you see it?
Do you see the beauty of opening up our lives to others? Of being generous with our stories… even if we just see the ugly?

“By opening up to others, you’ll prompt people to open up with God, this generous Father in heaven.”
My Ugly, His Beautiful… amazing!