that fog

There is nothing like waking up with a headache and what feels like could be the start of a migraine.

Of course – there isn’t ever a good time for this, right?
Nor is there ever a good time for your car shutting down on the highway…
or water leaks in your house…
or computers dying…

Yet, it is when you don’t have the time or resources to deal with these things that they seem to happen.

This has been the last week or so of my life – and I admit… it has really gotten me down.

I’ve turned to the things I know to do that help me keep focused during times of trouble… I’ve been praying, been in the Word, blasting music giving me perspective whenever I can, etc…

Anything to keep my head above water and looking at the One who saves.

Yet… I still have struggled through my days.
You know the kind – wondering what else could go “wrong” and when it will come to be?

This morning I needed to get out of the house to get some focused time to get caught up with work.

As I left the house, the sky mirrored my heart perfectly.

There was a heavy fog just weighing on the trees around our neighborhood…

But as I drove down the street, the sun was boldly breaking through the fog – it’s brilliance almost blinding.

How I longed for the Lord to break through MY fog.

Years ago a young mother in Mexico gave me a plaque with the words from John 8:12 on it:

“Yo soy la luz del mundo…
 I am the Light of the world;
he who follows Me
will not walk in the darkness,
but will have the Light of life.”

As I continued to drive, I couldn’t keep my eyes off the sky… thinking of this verse.

The sun was taking over and it was turning into a beautiful morning!
A stark contrast to my mood.

Then I noticed something more…
The fog wasn’t just being burned away by the sun… but the clouds were moving.

The clouds were moving as if to say, “This fog you are in… these damp, dreary, sucky days will not last.”

As the clouds were subtly moving across the sky, I was reminded that My King is still moving too.

I may not notice right away. In fact, I may very well just be focusing on the fog and clouds – but, it isn’t about what I see.

The TRUTH is – He is working.

“Be brave. Be strong. Don’t give up.
Expect God to get here soon.”
Psalm 31:34:

Here is the thing – I can continue to sit in my fog… or I can choose to recall the truth.
It may be a minute-by-minute battle…

Regardless, I choose to remember that when everything around me is falling apart… when I may not feel like enough to pull it together… my God is still God.

I don’t have to be enough… because my Jesus IS.