work harder
I read a quote earlier today that went something like this:
“One of the toughest parts of life is knowing whether to work harder or walk away.”
{sigh}
I wish the quote had more of an answer… rather than just point out the obvious 😉
Today I feel like I am spinning and spinning… trying to fill in where I fear the Lord won’t.
It is as if I forgot that there is more to life than “trying harder”.
Over and over this last year I have poured myself into various projects… only to have them fall flat – one after the other… and, I keep spinning – thinking it must be me.
Oh that fear that is so deeply rooted and keeps my eyes on what I see…
that fear that makes me feel like I know it all… that I can do this on my own…
But, what if I can’t?
What if all this working harder…
and harder…
trying to do better…
if only this…
if only that…
What if all this isn’t what we ought to be doing?
Have you heard the song – Just Breathe by Jonny Diaz?
The song winds you up as the beat gets faster and faster… before stopping and then the words, “Just Breathe”
Just typing that makes me pause and take a deep sigh.
Are you spinning too?
Look at this beautiful passage the Lord brought to mind today…
“Trust God from the bottom of your heart;
don’t try to figure out everything on your own.
Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go;
he’s the one who will keep you on track.
Don’t assume that you know it all.
Run to God! Run from evil!
Your body will glow with health,
your very bones will vibrate with life!
Honor God with everything you own;
give him the first and the best.
Your barns will burst,
your wine vats will brim over.
But don’t, dear friend, resent God’s discipline;
don’t sulk under his loving correction.
It’s the child he loves that God corrects;
a father’s delight is behind all this.”
Proverbs 3:5-12 MSG
This spinning I have entangled myself in is clearly based on my own fear of God not showing up where I think He ought… And these verses hit me right where I needed to be hit.
I think if I do this… then this, that and the other thing will fall into place –
But, the truth still is that all I need to do is Trust my King…
to acknowledge who He is…
and choose to stop spinning and fix my eyes on Him.
To choose to stop sulking under His loving correction…
{sigh… truth be told – that’s exactly what I have been doing}
A Father’s delight is behind all this.
Now run to your King and just be…
